Lately my emotions have been haywire. Little spurs of aggression followed by confusion and wonder in what I am really doing here in small beachtown, USA. I feel that I have a bigger purpose. I reason beond my own selfish wants. There is so much in this world that is ignored that if thought about more and acted on more could change the history of the world. What is it about the human race that keeps us from following through with our heart. I was reading an article on women that have been ravished and destroyed by war. Womanforwomen.org, a non-profit org. that creates jos for women inareas such as these has cmbined with Kate Spade and started paying women 7 to 10 dollars an item, which they are making scarves and hats, etc... but they are selling them for hundreds of dollars. In my unclarity, i have emailed them asking what the hundreds of dollars are going. Are they going into the non-profit org.? i haven't gotten a email back so I am eagerly waiting to find out. I just hope that it is going toward the bettering of these people and there countries.

What is it about compasion that allows people to feel that they can take it and use it to rob from people when they are trying to do good or others. I really bothers me that there are not more honest people out there. I told a lie to my ec girlfriend last night. I felt so bad that i had to call her back 5 minutes later and confess. it was stupid and totally made me a hypocrite. As I always go around telling people how much i hate liars and theives. I feel better about it, but i know it really hurt her feelings. and these feelings that I am trying to gain back as a friendship. What was i trying to do? Who knows I was drunk, shit happens for a reason at all times. Coincidence is an excuse for shit that is going to happen any way.